My daily life and Trying To Deal With The Loss Of My Sweet K.C.
It’s been a while since I’ve written. I’ve been so busy with the house and all. I have been painting up a storm. It’s keeping all my time occupied. I have been making phone calls to contractors and getting no reply or they reply several days later and I need to know what’s going on. If they can’t do the job or have no desire to do it, I wish they would let me know so I could find someone else who can take the job, and are willing to do it.
Plus my back has been out for days. Misery I tell you. I can’t straighten up, my back is in pain, and the stiffness is terrible. It’s pretty sad when your back goes out when you’re just sitting. How can your back go out when you’re just sitting? I would like to know.
I wonder how many people have been around someone where they always have to walk on eggshells all the time? I hate being around people like this. You can’t say or do anything without upsetting them, offending them, or hurting their feelings. Oh God, it’s so aggravating. I can’t stand it. I could just scream. (hang on a second – I think I will) Okay, I’m back. That felt good.
I have been in a movie phase lately. My daughter has all these DVD’s and I’ve been watching them one right after the other. It started with 3rd Rock from the sun, onto Everybody Loves Raymond, to Gooden Girls and now Seinfeld. What I have noticed is that I don’t care much for these shows. I don’t know if I don’t like them or I don’t like them anymore? They have really irritated me, a lot. So now I’m onto the thrillers, you know, for Halloween time. Nightmare on Elm Street, Halloween, those kinds of shows. I really need to get a life. Something that is fulfilling. It’s kind of hard though when you don’t drive. What’s a body to do?
I am so upset still over losing my cat. I miss him so much. You can’t lose a cat that you’ve had for fifteen years and not grieve for a while. It’s only been five days and I feel so lost and empty. I just can’t believe my little K.C. is gone. The house and my heart seem so empty. Sometimes I just start crying and don’t even realize that I’m doing it. (I miss you K.C.) I always will. I will always love you my sweet babydoll. I’m heartbroken, Ysabell.
Have to run. Much to do. More Later, Ysabell.